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Poem: For Luther (28th June 2012)

And I have seen such beauty
That does not insist desire
But stead fast moves and darts
In mind and bones
Growing and flexing its new born soul.

For though we all
March wisely towards life’s shade
Our hearts retain some majesty
That replays the scenes of much loved
Innocence
Again, repeat until
No more for it swells too much
And presses the present
Ugly fool from necessary grasps
To maintain our future plans
For he and she who trust
And depend upon our fortitude and not
Our folly.

I once dressed as the King you know
With sceptred hands and glorious entrances
Proud like the dumb show
Posturing in pleasantries and portents
Until only they remained.

Now I strut for the gutter’s edge
Who applaud my hopeful slip and fall
While secretly praying each step
Preserves by proxy their terrible souls.

For no man is wholly bad –
Nor good.
Or no man can truly be,
For in our iniquities and darkness
we hide
The rough edges of our souls
That must, by force of will be rounded or
At lesser force repelled till morning
comes again
And we again
Can breathe.

Let me explain.
I once knew a man who forced melted
powders through his skin
To fill his blood with delicious poisons
The kind that only peril possesses
And curiosity beguiles.
He said to me “What is this fascination with
Length, Time, Age?”
Coughing and sighing he added, “We
live and die is all
The time between is ours to do with as
we will and I…”

The blanket against the window glass
grew darker as the sun
In poor winter receded apologising
And fires burnt strong across the land
As a candle was lit in the here and now
To provide dual purpose, so the
smoke curled, “And I…
Have little now to prove or say more
than has been said
Much finer and purer than ever I
could

“Let’s listen to Zappa and ignore the
banging drums”

For we are the retinue of the future
Purpose now set and not ours
But to prepare the fields of glory
upon which
Our feet shall never tread.

And that matters not,
For I have seen such beauty
That does not require assent
But stead fast moves and darts
In mind and bones
Growing and flexing its new born soul
To claim the lands bequeathed.

by Martin Favager

 

Poem taken from issue 14 of theRecord.

Poem: Stepping Stones

One step at a time alone
Out of this rage into a calm
Out of the dark into the light
Out of this box into the air
Out of my dream into your heart
Out of the gate into your arms
One step at a time together.

by Alun Rogers

 

Poem taken from issue 14 of theRecord.

Poem: Touching Hand

When I was little a hand used to
touch me
And I couldn’t run

I grew up afraid of the dark
Scared of being alone
But I was fragile and little
And I couldn’t run

My uncle used to visit us
He hugged me and took me away
from mum
He cut dry banana leaves and asked
me to lie down
And I couldn’t run

I was afraid of my uncle
I didn’t want to sleep with him
And I never spoke to anyone
And I couldn’t run

At school, I was a shy and lonely child
I was afraid of the teachers
And bigger boys in my class
And I couldn’t run

I never saw my uncle again
Then I started to run
I ran free in my dreams
And I learnt to run away from my life

At last I knew how to run
But I couldn’t run away from my past

I am now again afraid, alone and fragile like a child
I am now inside a cell where it is forbidden to run
I am now paying the price for losing
a race
Trying to get away from the touching
hand.

by Carlos Gutierrez

 

Poem taken from issue 14 of theRecord.

Poem: Bar None

Inside Out
Upside Down
A Mind in torment ‘hind a frown
For my neighbour
Not for me
I’m okay,
My thoughts are free.
I read,
I dream,
Recall the good
I run through fields
Hide in woods
I’m lucky
For I have a friend
Someone to have
The love I send.
That’s all I need
To stay the course
To gird my loins
Repel ill force
And with the love
That I receive
I don’t feel down
I cannot grieve
So bless my friend
For being there
We’ll hug again
Out there, somewhere.

 

by Bastian Wolf

 

 

Poem taken from issue 16 of theRecord.

Poem: An Ode to You (an ode to my friend)

No one single deed,
No moment in time
No simple descriptor
Can clearly define
No scales that could measure
Nor words that could lend could capture the essence
What makes a true friend?

A friend is a person
You know will walk in
And stand by your side
Stay through thick and thin
When there’s no one else left
’cause they’ve all turned and walked out
A friend is that one
On whom you always can count

When life throws you curve balls
That knock you askance
And trial, pain and sorrow
Are leading the dance
And shadows are casting, your world all in grey
A friend is the sunshine
Who brightens your day

A friend is that person
Who’ll always stay true
The soul from your past life
You know you once knew
He’s cried for your sorrows
He’s celebrated your joys
His music is calming gentle soothing deep voice
A god given gift
In whom which to rejoice

Thank you dear friend
For the gift that is you
The love that you giveth
Letting me love you too
You are the one person
I’m proud to call ‘Friend’

by TopCat68

 

 

Poem taken from issue 16 of theRecord.

 

Poem: Somebody Pressed Pause

by release2succeed

I wasn’t there when it happened
so didn’t notice
the years slide by as
they moved forward
and I sat still
silent in my cell
pleasant, dry and numb
to the caterwauling wheels
of everything drifting by.
It only stings when you noticed,
I found.

When jerked to attention by some smell,
some sound,
or simply slipping from ritual,
protective and dull,
into remembrance of another man
in shadows beneath your step
reflecting no light,
little joy.

Not red or green,
but constant amber
to colour-free eyes.
That’s when the laughter and banter
retreats and recoils
into juggled regrets –
getting caught. Being dumb.

All those treasures you lost,
before being aware
and, oh yeah, now you’re aware
and, oh yeah, now how you wish.

Then you wonder, as you do, if anyone
anywhere
mentions your name
even fondly
in passing
across lacquer wood tables
in smokeless dark bars.

You wonder, you do,
under circumstances such,
if a hole still exists
and if so would you fit?
Perhaps best not to know,
perhaps better forget,
there’s a comfortable warmth
in deceit to yourself.

Still it’s times such as these,
inside,
indoors,
when your head takes a trip,
a flight,
a charabanc coach ride,
down narrowing routes
in search of your self
your then self
that ‘what’ ‘if’ ‘maybe’
self
that one you’re forgetting professionally,
but nevertheless
sometimes,
all it would take
would be something so tiny
so small
so meaningless
so everyday life;
a kindness
word
smile
thought or remembrance
as brisk as a twitch
to suggest
that the old forest still knows
and will hear should you fall.

Then someone pressed play,
or again, was it pause?

 

Poem taken from issue 18 of theRecord.

Fonesavvy

Ben Sturge

If I’m an ex why am I having a difficult time moving on?

Relationship problems you might be thinking? Well for the most part you would be correct. You see after my release from prison, like most do, I had realised my polyamorous relationship with crime and the police had run its course. After repaying my debt to society I was keen to start a new career and left prison proudly forced into wearing my badge as an ex-offender.

The problem was and still is to some extent is that despite wanting to start a new career or better myself, this label of ex-offender seems to confuse the most educated of society, they are failing to understand what EX actually means? I’m sure employers see it as a terrible disease meaning unreliable and incapable, whilst insurance brokers see it as pound signs.

Is this rehabilitation? How realistic is rehabilitation when up against this level of adversity?

With logic and morals at war I chose the challenge of the latter and applied my criminal learnings to set up a legitimate business providing a service to inmates friends and families nationwide. Fonesavvy was born to reduce the cost of calls to mobiles from prison. With the help and support of understanding organisations such as Inside Time, the high barriers of being an ex-offender soon become hurdles, good news travels fast, especially in prison and Fonesavvy is now nationwide. It’s not been easy and we are still experiencing some resistance due to a lack of understanding from HMPS.

However I’m sure on this occasion it has nothing to do with being an ex-offender and I’m faithful this will be resolved quickly and Fonesavvys benefits will be recognised. It is my hope that anyone reading this will be inspired and confident enough to believe in themselves and realise the success and satisfaction that can be achieved in the legitimate world. With the hurdles and stigma attached to being an ex-offender in a climate with already limited job prospects, employment is very difficult, what better time to become self employed and start your own business?

For more information visit www.fonesavvy.co.uk; follow Fonesavvy on Twitter @fonesavvyuk or find us on Facebook and Blackberry messenger pin 2826F945.

Article taken from Issue 18.

Re-Imagining the Use of Criminal Records in Europe

Andrew Henley

In the context of the recent, but limited, reforms to the 1974 Rehabilitation of Offenders Act in England and Wales it is worthwhile considering different approaches to criminal record data which have been taken across continental Europe. To this end, I recently attended the 6th Annual Lecture of the Scottish Centre for Crime and Justice Research at the University of Edinburgh, delivered this year by Professor Elena Larrauri from the Universitat Pompeu de Barcelona.

Professor Larrauri notes that the use of pre-employment criminal record screening has increased due largely to a culture of risk aversion and a desire by the public for increased security and protection from what formerly convicted people ‘might do’ in the future. Yet despite this expansion in screening, criminal records have received relatively little attention from academics, with the notable exception of the United States where the availability of conviction data is comparatively widespread.

The expansion of pre-employment screening produces an impact in three areas related to the regulation of criminal record data. Firstly, how much disclosure is acceptable? Do we, for instance, believe that all employers have the right to ask about criminal records or do we take the view that such information should be subject to some sort of privacy controls? Clearly the more risk averse a society becomes, the more likely it is to tend towards the former rather than the latter point of view. Secondly, is the issue of expungement time, or how long it takes for criminal records to become ‘spent’ or ‘sealed’. Again, it is easy to imagine how the length of this period will tend to be dependent upon the level of risk aversion in a society. The third issue relates to which jobs should be subject to pre-employment criminal record screening and formed the main basis of the lecture.

In continental Europe (as opposed to the UK), conviction-based employment screening has often been limited to the public sector and, in particular, roles in the administration of justice such as judges, police and prison officers. Until now little attention has been paid to blanket bans on the employment of people with previous convictions in public administration. But Professor Larrauri posed the question as to whether we should simply accept it as a given that people with a criminal record are automatically excluded from public sector roles. She notes, for instance, that an ‘automatic exclusion’ approach can expand to other roles in public administration including office clerks and ultimately even the gardener who works in the grounds of a public building. Additionally, she highlights the fact that a range of employment has increasingly become subject to forms of occupational licencing meaning that taxi drivers, nightclub door staff and even bingo hall callers have required ‘clean’ records in some jurisdictions.

In relation to private-sector employers, comparatively little information about the extent of criminal records checks is available in continental Europe. However, Professor Larrauri notes that EU directive 2011/92/EU on combating the sexual abuse and sexual exploitation of children may mark a shift in this position given that it will enable some private employers to ask about previous convictions. She noted, however, that the legislation does not give criminal records a ‘conclusive force’ (telling employers who they may not employ) but rather empowers them to ask about criminal records in some situations. Caution was also expressed that forms of screening brought in to combat sexual abuse can often open the door to screening for violent offences or for any employment which relates to the somewhat ill-defined and broad category of ‘vulnerable adults’.

In order to combat unnecessary discrimination against people with convictions who have served their sentences, two models currently exist. In the ‘spent model’ employers are legally prohibited from considering criminal records after a period of time has elapsed. The problems associated with this however, are in determining what are appropriate ‘expungement times’ and the fate of the ex-offender during this interim period whilst they wait for their conviction to become ‘spent’. In the ‘anti-discrimination model’ employers are advised that they can only exclude people where there is a ‘close nexus’ between the nature of the conviction and the type of employment being applied for – for instance, between fraud and work in the financial sector or between speeding convictions and driving jobs. The issue with this model is that it can often represent a delegation of the power to punish from the state to employers, since the exclusion from employment which results can be seen as a form of punishment in its own right.

Professor Larrauri suggests that, as an alternative to these models, the judicial and legal system should take ownership of criminal records and incorporate them into the process of delivering punishment at the point of sentencing. Given that the purpose in using criminal record data is supposed to be an attempt to reduce risk to the broader public (although it is not firmly established to what extent this data remains predictive of future offending in the long-term), this could mean the imposition of certain occupational disqualifications for an extended period following the end of a sentence. This would mean that certain people would be disqualified from specific occupations rather than all forms of employment. Additionally, such disqualifications would be based on individual assessment rather than blanket bans and would necessarily be time limited rather than indefinite. This is because bringing criminal records into the field of punishment, rather than seeing them as a ‘collateral consequence’ of a conviction, would mean that the usual legal and human rights safeguards associated with punishment (for example, Article 7 of the European Convention – ‘no punishment without law’) would then begin to apply, which currently they do not.

Article taken from Issue 18.

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